In all Craziness...

Life seems so crazy to me. I am the last one left from all my friends from high school that is still single. It just seems so weird, all of their 1 year anniversaries are coming up, and here I am still single. Not that being single is a bad thing, I just am alone... Really ALONE. All my friends spend their days with their husbands or kids (yeah, some of my friends already have kids, or a kid on the way) So who do I spend my days with? No one. All though some days my homework keeps me company, but that is company I wish would go away.
Work was going super good, but then a series of unfortunate events took place. I almost feel sick walking into work. I feel like a failure, I know that the stuff that happened last week isn't completely my fault, but I still feel like a failure. I hate that feeling. I don't want to feel like a failure. I worked really hard to get where I was at work, but it turns out I wasn't doing it well enough.
Okay, so I am not completely alone. I have a few friends that are single. Allison, and Scott. Plus I have been on a couple of dates lately. I forgot how tiring dating is. I have spent more nights at Allie's apartment than at my own house this past week. It was fun, it has been a long time since I have smiled that much.
School is almost over. I only have to take 2 more finals. Accounting and Living Prophets. I need to do a lot of studying. I think that I will study all day tomorrow. Turn off my phone, and just study. That way I can go in on Thursday morning take my tests. Then have the afternoon to relax. I can't wait for Christmas break, but I have a lot of work that I need to get done during the break. Patching holes in the walls and priming. That is what my break is going to be full of. Then in January me and Allison are going to paint it. I am so excited.
That pretty much covers my life at the moment. I guess it isn't too crazy. It is actually quite boring.

Second Wind

I think that i just hit my second wind. YES!! finally. I think I will survive this semester, I know, that used to be a crazy thought, but guess what. I think I can do this! That makes me so much more happy. I haven't felt a relief like this in such a long time. Everything is going to be okay.

Cool picture thing

Today

I was so busy today, it was fun. I like to be busy. Plus I got to hang out with Jocelynn and my mom. I like both of them a lot. It makes work go by so much faster when I have my family there. I love jocelynn I am so glad that my brother married her. I didn't really know her very well before they got married and so I never really objected to her, but I thought she was kind of personality less. But I was so wrong. I love her, I love working with her. She makes me laugh, we just laugh. We don't get a whole lot of work done sometimes but I like talking to her. She's one of my only friend. How lucky am I? I get to work with a friend. Hey Joce, thanks for making me smile. It helps me relax. Family is a good thing.

Keeping up...

I can't keep up, I am treading water and I can't swim very well. I need to catch up on a lot of things, but first I need to find the time to do it. Wish me luck!!

It seems that everyone is always waiting

First it was Allison, and then Wistie waiting for a letter. Now it is my turn. Patience is a virtue(or so they say, who is they anyway?) The one person that I would have to call my Best Friend(best guy friend at least) hasn't written me in what seems like for ever but in reality it has only been like 2 1/2 weeks. I write him faithfully. I am quick with my responses, and yet I have to sit around and wait for his. Waiting sucks. Plus his birthday is coming up here in like a month. I don't want to pay the extremely high shipping costs to get it there quickly so I must plan way in advance and then send it 3 weeks early. What do should I get him? What do missionaries need? A tie? boring. A watch? hmmm... Candy? (is that why boys always gain weight on their missions?) I have no idea, I need to do some major thinking on this subject.

Out of Breath

Gosh, I can't seem to ever catch my breath. I am like the energizer bunny... I just keep going and going and going. One of these days I am going to die, I am going to be so burned out I can't function. I am tired. So tired, but I am proud of myself. I am doing well, I am handling my stress so much better than I used to. I am getting the hang on the whole, do what you need to do to get everything done lifestyle. I just hope that one day I will be able to catch by breath.