Tuesday, December 16, 2008

In all Craziness...

Life seems so crazy to me. I am the last one left from all my friends from high school that is still single. It just seems so weird, all of their 1 year anniversaries are coming up, and here I am still single. Not that being single is a bad thing, I just am alone... Really ALONE. All my friends spend their days with their husbands or kids (yeah, some of my friends already have kids, or a kid on the way) So who do I spend my days with? No one. All though some days my homework keeps me company, but that is company I wish would go away.
Work was going super good, but then a series of unfortunate events took place. I almost feel sick walking into work. I feel like a failure, I know that the stuff that happened last week isn't completely my fault, but I still feel like a failure. I hate that feeling. I don't want to feel like a failure. I worked really hard to get where I was at work, but it turns out I wasn't doing it well enough.
Okay, so I am not completely alone. I have a few friends that are single. Allison, and Scott. Plus I have been on a couple of dates lately. I forgot how tiring dating is. I have spent more nights at Allie's apartment than at my own house this past week. It was fun, it has been a long time since I have smiled that much.
School is almost over. I only have to take 2 more finals. Accounting and Living Prophets. I need to do a lot of studying. I think that I will study all day tomorrow. Turn off my phone, and just study. That way I can go in on Thursday morning take my tests. Then have the afternoon to relax. I can't wait for Christmas break, but I have a lot of work that I need to get done during the break. Patching holes in the walls and priming. That is what my break is going to be full of. Then in January me and Allison are going to paint it. I am so excited.
That pretty much covers my life at the moment. I guess it isn't too crazy. It is actually quite boring.

1 comment:

  1. Yay! You're not alone! I love you! And I've had soooo much fun with you this week :) Thank you