I left work today with a smile… what’s up with that?

This week has been a tough week. I can’t even tell you how many times I was pulled into an office, yelled at, and I left crying. I can’t handle the stress of school, and then go to work just to be yelled at. Then today I got pulled into another meeting. The first question.

“Do you know what I called you into my office to talk to you about.”

I had no idea, I figured it had something to do with everything else I had been yelled at for earlier in the week. No, he wanted to see what was going on. It wasn’t like me to be constantly taken into one of the offices and getting yelled at. Then we resolved a lot of things. Finally things are moving in a positive direction… cross your fingers that they keep going this way.

Pros and Cons

We will start with the Cons about my day…

• I got yelled at today at work
• I had to wake up early
• I had to take a Calc exam
• I cried at work
• It is freezing outside

Pros

• I took a Calc test today… it will be a couple weeks before another one.
• I got 90% on my Calc test… I took a picture, but it was blurry
• I had one lady just rave about how nice I am on the phone
• I got a package from Scott
• The dryer is fixed
• I got to watch Veronica Mars
• I am done for the night, which means I can go to bed.
• I was watching a video Scott sent home and he is speaking Japanese and I could pick out a couple words… which I think is a good thing

The pros out way the cons. Life is still good.

Sunday Pictures

Bryce came over on Sunday (yesterday) he was sitting on my love sac and we started taking pictures… here are a few.  

We have some pretty good times! Yep, that’s my family minus Jason, Joce, The Boys and my dad.

Sometimes I miss living in an apartment

Today I was at ward prayer, and we do something called “nice notes” You can write a note to someone in the ward and then it gets delivered to them. Then today someone said, I would write you a note, but you don’t live here… Hmmm… Thanks? I just don’t fit in very well. First of all, I don’t really go out of my way to meet new people. Second of all I live outside of the apartment complex, so I guess that makes me an outsider.

I am a little jealous, not that I want to have a social life, but I do like to fit in. I loved freshman year living in apartments. I like when people know who I am, I like when people like me. Just not enough to give up my free rent, and good grades.

Still Nothing Too Eventful…

Today was a pretty long day. I took a test, and then I spent most of my time up in Salt Lake with a friend. You know nothing too eventful. I also filed my taxes. I love it when it says I am going to get a pretty big return. I think I know exactly what I want the return to go towards. I know it’s past midnight… so does that mean I missed a day on my blog? or does the day count from when I wake up to when I go to bed?

A little short on time

First of all I don’t have anything fun or exciting to talk about, second of all I need to study. I have my first Molecular Biology Test tomorrow. Wish me luck, tomorrow is going to be a long day. Sorry so short, maybe something eventful will happen tomorrow.

I’ll be the first to admit that I’m scared

• I have a fear of being handicapped and not having anyone tell me that I am.
• I am afraid that I am going to be hit by someone riding a bike on campus.
• I am afraid that I can’t do everything that I want to do.
• I am afraid of what others think of me.
• I am afraid of saying something stupid in front of a group of people so I stay pretty much to myself.
• I don’t know if I am afraid of heights, but I certainly don’t like them
• I am afraid of letting people down.
• I am afraid to be late… if I am late to class, or church then I usually won’t go because I hate it so much.
• I am afraid of the future.
• High expectations scare me to death
• Not being perfect scares me, (I know that nobody is, but I don’t want other people to know that I’m not)
• I am afraid of losing my job. (although I secretly want to)
• I am afraid of getting bad grades.

But fear is what drives me… because I fear failure it makes me work that much harder so that I don’t fail. I just cross my fingers that my fear is enough to make me successful. If that even makes sense.