When it sounds too good to be true...

I couldn't ask for anything more in my life right now. Which in some ways scares me. I mean, what goes up must come down. I really should be enjoying everything that I have right now, but instead I am worried about when things are going to get worse. Life is so perfect, I have a great job, I love school(the homework and tests not so much), I am starting to be a little more social again. I stay busy with the things that I like to do. What more could I ask for? My life sounds too good to be true, and you know what the saying says, "If it sound too good to be true, then it probably is. I just need to stop thinking and enjoy life!

Its gonna be okay...

Today was fantastic. It didn't start out that way, but then it got better. I was so tired when I went to work this morning. I ended up coming home to sleep, it was very nice. I haven't been able to get enough sleep for so long. Then I watched a couple of movies. I haven't relaxed in so long. I feel so much better. Life is good, even if I don't do too well in every aspect of my life.

When Life gives you Lemons...

I think I'm just going to have to learn how to make lemonaid. Sometimes I leave work, and I can't believe how luck I am to have a job that I love. Then sometimes I leave work, and I want to quit. But that is life, and I am going to make the most of it. I just need to figure out how. I have lots of tools, but I'm not sure how to use them yet. Thats the mystery of life... though I'm sure that I will never quite figure it out.

What matters most

I have been too busy lately to realize all of the things I have been neglecting. I used to be good at keeping in contact with old friends and my family. I hardly ever talk to anyone now. I always thought it was important to stay in contact with people, make sure they know that I care about them. I am so sorry to everyone that I haven't talked to in a while. I am working on it, and I hope that I will be able to make time for the people and the things that matter most.

I guess my life isn't over...

I got back my test score this week. An 82, without the curve, that is much better than I was thinking it would be, I’m still a little disappointed though. I just need to make sure I leave more time for studying before the next test. Sometimes it is very difficult to find or make time to study. Working almost full time, and going to school full time is not an easy task. But I think it is starting to get easier. I just need to start telling people no when they want to hang out and I don’t have time or if I have to study. I have already spent too much time this semester trying to make other people happy. I am just wearing myself out. I need to focus on me for a little while, make me my first priority rather that always worrying about everyone else. I might have issues with this at first but I’m guessing it will make my life a lot easier. I need to focus more on school; if I don’t then there is no chance that I will be able to get into medical school. If I work really hard all week, make sure that I keep up with my classes, do homework every night then I will have my weekends free. Maybe this will work, maybe this won’t, I can only hope.