It makes me smile...

Somedays I feel like everyone is staring at me when I walk through campus. Sometimes I replay events or conversations in my head and smile. I even catch my self chuckling to my self occasionally. I wonder what other people think as they walk by. Maybe they think that I am crazy... But hey, at least I am entertaining myself.

Life is going really good right now. I should probably be studying more than I am, but other

than that I can't think of anything that I can change. I like what I am doing, I like what I am studying. I feel like I am getting a lot of things done, cleaning, and organizing stuff.

Today, someone even came up to me to say hi and talk for a minute. I love when I'm not the one who has to go out of their way to talk to friends. It was a boy I once had a crush on (High School). I was walking to the library with some one and a couple others said hi. I love that I was with someone, because it made me feel popular. Who doesn't like feeling popular every once in a while.

Halloween is this weekend.... I have a party tonight, tomorrow and Sunday to go to. I love my costume (I will put up pictures later, after I get all ready). I think that this is the first year that I actually have a costume. A real costume that I didn't throw together 3 minutes before I walked out the door.

About 5.5 months until Scott gets home. I am excited, very excited... but it's also kinda scary. Five and a half months is not a very long time. It is finally becoming real that he will be coming home pretty soon. It has always been something that would happen just forever in the future, almost something that wouldn't ever happen. Now I am starting to realize that time has past, and the clock is ticking down. CRAZY!

Today I looked like a hippie. I wore a headband thing across my forehead. It was kinda fun. I still can't decide if I actually think that it is cute, or if I just think that it was fun. I kinda like it, it is so different than something that I would usually do. I will have to put a picture up and you can help me to decide.

Lots of things make me smile. I am a pretty happy person, and I am enjoying myself right now.

Work is a no go...

Yesterday I went in for a working interview. I had a blast, I would have absolutely loved the job. I got to watch a surgery... it wasn't that intense just removal of some skin cancer, but still... there was blood and stitches. The doctor and the PA were great. I got the call today saying that I didn't get the job, but they would like to hold onto my resume incase they have an open position in the future. Which is pretty much code for "We're going to try to make you feel better by saying you have a shot in the future" I am pretty upset about not getting the job. I didn't think that I would be as sad as I am. But being able to go in and go through the motions of what I would be doing made me want the job so much more. I love the medical field... and that is why someday I would LOVE to go to medical school. I am going to send in a thank you note for their time and allowing me to come in and shadow the MA (Medical Assistant). I am hoping that this will make them remember me if a position does come up in the future. I'm grateful that I am getting unemployment and that I didn't NEED the job.

As far as me being social... I have been on 3 dates in the past week, all different guys. They have been pretty fun. I have been friends with all of them for a while, and they were pretty relaxed.

The good news is 6 months... :)

Interviews...

So as I said in my last post I applied for a medical assisting position. I hardly ever get a news paper while I am at school, but on Monday I decided to pick one up. I looked through the job section of the paper and I found an ad that said. PT Medical Asst. Provo UT, no exp. needed. Please fax resumes to.... I don't know why but I immediately was excited about this ad. I went home, printed off my resume, and then went to the spa to fax it in. Yesterday I got a call asking if I would be willing to come in for an interview. I was super confused when they called, because I didn't really know where I had applied, all I knew is I applied for a medical assisting job. It turns out it is at a dermatologist's office. I went in and met with someone named Steve. At the beginning of the interview he said that they were doing two part interviews, the first was just to put a face to the resume and kind of weed through the applicants and the second would be a little more intense. He said they would call if they decided to do a second interview. It was pretty laid back, he asked me a couple questions about myself, what I am interested in, why I applied for the job, easy stuff. As we wrapped up the interview he asked me to come in the next day (today) for my second interview. I was excited, it's good news if you can get past the first interview. I was put on a list with about 15 other names for a second interview. Today when I went in I met with a lady named Lisa. She was super nice, and she made me feel comfortable. I think she is the doctor's daughter or something. I was a little concerned because when I got there I was asked to sit out in the main waiting room, I was there for about 10 minutes and then a girl walked out (I assume she just finished with her interview) They called me back to the smaller waiting room where I sat for another 10 minutes or so. Then another girl walked out from the office, and they called me in for my interview. I was in there for about 3 minutes and then they told me I would find out by tomorrow about the position. I went home and was just hanging out when I got a call from the doctors office. I was supposed to find out tomorrow about the position, so I must have been an easy person to take of the list of qualified applicants. I don't have any experience in the field, and I am a full time student. He starts of by saying that they had an overwhelming amount of applicants. They listed it for a day and had 45 people send in resumes. At that point I was sure that he was calling to let me know that I didn't get the job. He then said that they narrowed it down to two applicants, and I was one of them. Neither of us had met the doctor, and he asked if I would be willing to come in for a couple hours on Monday to meet the doctor and nursing staff. Make sure that it was a position that I wanted and we would go from there. I am still in shock. I don't know how I am one of the two people chosen from 45 applicants. It's really exciting for me, and I really hope I get the job. Because it is only part time, I still have to "seek" a full time position elsewhere but I will still qualify for part of my unemployment. I am nervous about Monday, because I think this is the perfect position for me. We'll see what happens... cross your fingers for me!

It's my Lucky Day (yesterday)

Today (yesterday) I noticed a few extra little blessings in my life. I woke up, checked my email... and guess what I got? I got approved for unemployment!!! I am super excited, now I can only apply for the jobs that I would like to get. I don’t have to resort to the “I’m desperate, and need a job NOW” jobs just yet. I will still be looking for a new job, but this way I don’t have to stress out as much about it.

While we are on the subject of work, I picked up one of my school news papers and started flipping through the classifieds. I ended up applying for a medical assisting position. That is exactly the kind of job that I would like, but because I don’t have my medical assisting certificate, I have to find a place that is willing to train. I’m hoping that I get a call back. (Although I don’t mind not having a job at the moment)

I was supposed to take an iclicker (it’s pretty much a quiz we take by clicking in on little remote things that we had to buy) quiz in class, but the TA that was supposed to bring the quiz didn’t bring it so they postponed it. I had forgotten my iclicker at home. It was postponed though, so now I will be able to still get those points.

There is a cute boy in my D&C class. I have always thought he was pretty cute, but today he wore glasses. I don’t know why, but I have always had a secret thing for glasses. (No, Scott doesn’t wear glasses) The point is, that boy from my class just earned more points in my book. Too bad I have never talked to him... and I doubt I ever will.

My car is washed, waxed, and vacuumed! Sure that wasn’t just luck, but I love having a clean car. It makes me feel so much less stressed, my next project... my bedroom (Imagine scary music here, maybe even a scream if you want to know how I feel about this) My bedroom is in desperate need of a good cleaning, I have had time to do it, but I have decided just to ignore it, well it’s finally really starting to get to me. It must be done.

I am still struggling with meeting new people... but at least I am thinking about it more. It’s easier to meet people when you are a) at the library b) at the cougar eat or c) in class. I don’t go to the library unless there is a reason that I need to be on campus later in the day, and need to waste some time. I only go to the cougar eat on Tuesdays and Thursdays because I have a break in the classes. My biggest issue about meeting people in class is I am weird about being ON TIME (Early) to class. That means I don’t get to choose if I sit next to anyone or not. The kind of fill in the spaces around me, and depending on how big the class is, I find that the majority of the time I sit by myself.

New Friends

I think I am going to try to make a bigger effort to meet people this week. I am only going to commit to a week, because I don't know if making new friends will really be very easy. Pretty much I have been too busy for a social life, and I feel like I have forgotten how to have one. I am afraid that people will think that I am stupid, so I tend to be quiet when I am with a big group of people. Not that I am shy... I just over analyze anything I think about saying, and then it is too late to say. Is that how shy people are? Here's the plan. I am going to talk to at least 3 people every day this week.

There is one person that I pass everyday on my way to campus. On the first day of school I said good morning to him as I passed him. I figured, it was the first day of classes, everyone could use a pick me up. The next day he said good morning to me, and it caught me off guard. I have seen him almost every morning since, and every morning we say hi. We always pass in the same spot everyday, and I can see him smile when he sees me approaching. It kinda makes me laugh. How great would it be to have multiple people that you recognize on campus and can smile when you walk pass them. I call this guy the good morning man.

That is my goal, make new friends. It doesn't even have to be the kind of friends that you hang out with, just the kind that you can recognize, and smile when you see them, and hopefully they smile when they see you.

Someone got my number last week. I eating in the cougar eat when a girl walked by looking for a seat. There really weren't any empty tables around, and there was a seat at my table. I told her that she could sit with me... I was studying, and she kept talking to me. She invited me to go dancing with her and her roommates on Wednesday, and Swing dancing on tuesdays. She got my phone number so she can text me when they can use extra people. That's the first person at school to ask for my number... too bad it was a girl.

So you think you're my friend...

Yesterday I went over to one of my friend's houses to see her week old baby. When I left there I thought about how much more I value her friendship over some of the other people I consider my friends. Whats the difference? Here are some of the things that I can think of that makes her friendship mean more.

• She pushes me to be better, she doesn't tell me that the expectations I set for myself are too high. She encourages me to keep chugging along. Even if she thinks I have too much on my plate.
• She knows my standards, and respects me for keeping them. She doesn't try to get me to break my standards.
• She never puts me in a position that I don't want to be in.
• She doesn't call me just because she needs something. She calls me because she wants to catch up. She knows that she can call me anytime that she needs something but that isn't the only time.
• She doesn't expect me to do anything for her that she wouldn't be willing to do for me.
• She respects my standards. Even if they vary from her own she doesn't give me a hard time for believing what I believe.
• When I am studying she asks if I have time to come over and visit. She doesn't guilt me into coming over, or staying over when I tell her I need to go study.
• She never calls me late at night to tell me to come over to hang out. She knows that I go to bed early (I'm sure she does too)
• It really isn't about how often we talk.

These are things that I love about Suzanne. She is a great example to me, and she doesn't try to change me. I hope that my friends see the same qualities in me. Suzanne isn't the only one who I consider a good friend, she's just the one who made me think about it. If you consider yourself my friend do you feel like you have these qualities?

Zani - Thanks for letting me come over yesterday. It was good to catch up, and Addelyn is absolutely beautiful. You are/will be an amazing mother!